
Chaos in a dark place. I have no idea how to explain or describe this journey. It's angry, it's cynical and intentionally a little raw/rough around the edges. (And don't worry, I don't expect much love for this.) But after much thought, the only way I could approach this was by combining songs into a continuous mix. I know this sort of breaks the concept of the mixed tape, but I wanted to reflect music bumping into each other, becoming noise. A friend heard this mix a quarter of the way through and declared, "I can't stand this! Please turn it off. I feel like I am losing my mind..." With that, I knew I had accomplished the abstract combination I intended. And I don't think I will ever do a mix like this again... ever.
About the artwork:
Marc made me laugh today, because he kinda gave me a WTF, regarding it. I thought that was a great reaction. But then I realized none of you know me to get my sarcasm and why this represents a hellish end. Rather than let you guess, let me explain a little about it: This photo was taken by a boyfriend who was a photographer. It was 1992 and he liked to take these moody, Sinead O'Connor (yes, Marc Almond-esque!) photos. There were lots of candles, crosses and religious symbolism. It was cool (read: sarcasm). Then as our relationship unraveled, I soon discovered that much of it was lies. Including discovering many of the guys in the photos displayed around our house (including this artwork) were guys he'd slept with. I am not sure why I have kept these photos around, but they remind me of a brief period in my life that felt like a living hell. And this photo (sarcastically) seemed to fit my "chaos in a dark place" mood.
(Available in two formats, podcast friendly m4a should list the song tracks, or an mp3, if the m4a format won't work for you.)
Tracks include:
Funerale - Corteo
Dead Boy - Aiden Shaw
Intro - Pulled from a Junior Vasquez mix
The Anarchist Movement - Infamous
Allah, Mohammed, Char, Yaar - Diamanda Galas & Nusrat Fateh Ali Kahn
Back in Baby's Arms - Patsy Cline
Schrapnell - Isolee
Hot Monkey, Hot Ass! - Black Moustache
Fanatica - Eisbrecher
Animoid Row Pt 2 - Vangelis
Money Back - Cazwell
le Disko - Shiny Toy Guns
Pop Ya Cork - Stanton Warriors
So Alive - Love & Rockets
The Host of Seraphim - Dead Can Dance
Beautiful Burnout - Underworld
My Soul Yearns for Peace - Blitzkrieg Tiger
Long Snake Moan - PJ Harvey
Myxomatosis - Radiohead
I Fucked Your Boyfriend - Nick Name
She's Lost Control - Joy Division
Lolita - Elefant
Up in Flames - Julee Cruise
Evil California - Annie Ross
Opening 3 - Thomas Newman
Readymade - Snow Lion
Furious Angels - Rob Dougan
Rich People - The Hospitals
Only Dreaming - Red Lorry, Yellow Lorry
Stratoscape - Front 242
Snatch of Fury - Frankie Goes to Hollywood
Rainfall - Naomi
Kernkraft 400 - Zombie Nation
Psycho Boy Jack - Dust Brothers
John Wayne Gacy, Jr. - Sufjan Stevens
Julia - Eurythmics
Not the Red Baron - Tori Amos
Running Up That Hill (Datassette Remix) - Kate Bush
Painted Black - Anneli Drecker
Vergissmeinnicht - Eisbrecher